Not sure why…
Somehow, I was not actively blogging like I used to be….
Neither did I update my blogroll here in wordpress too…. Soon.. 
Just feel like I wanna let it out tonight… been on the roller coaster rides these few weeks.
Finally we have managed to submit the 2 projects on Saturday. But we are not done with that, 2 new projects have been assigned on our first day with the finishing department. The tense and stress were so overwhelming between us. Yet, I still feel that I need to learn more and wondering when I gonna catch up? >.<
Anyway, that’s not the purpose for this post…. Shouldn’t talk about work outside the working hours eh? Hahaha…
Owh, guess my dream to move out soon really does come true. Hmm in different way though…never have I imagined it gonna be this way. Dad somehow wanna finalize the divorce with mum at this period of time after for how many years….16 years?! Even me myself didn’t remember that actually their divorce aren’t official yet..
Mum was worried about this and that when she called me….somehow I don’t have any response to the situation. To me, everything is like normal….isn’t it?
After a few days, then only I feel the stress….i’m tired of standing in between them.. what’s more when I met up with dad earlier on he didn’t even mention it to me. I thought I’m meeting up with him here in Kajang alone but I was wrong. They are here to meet up with the developer to get the apartment transferred to my name and his. I didn’t even have time with dad to talk it thorough…I was wondering what’s happening. Is this like a cover-up or compensation for me because of the divorce? Why wouldn’t he tell me and talk to me like an adult? Why she’s here with dad anyway for this matter??
They just left soon after the meeting with the developer and headed to Genting. I was wondering if he knew what’s on my mind. What about me? Couldn’t you even spend time with your own daughter? I was hoping to spend more time with dad.
I know I’ll need to pay all of these back to dad..but I don’t think this is the way to keep me bounded….Both of them need me so stop keeping me apart from each other. I’m torn in between. I couldn’t even comprehend this family relationship anymore….maybe I never did.
Thought somehow going out with my friends for dinner could chill me up…but I feel empty inside. I’m not sure who to talk with…staring at the walls and I hate the feelings of staying in this confined room. I don’t wanna be at home…I wanna be elsewhere……I would rather drive aimlessly sometimes just to have a peace of mind, not staying alone in the room..
Aargh well, tomorrow is a new day. Keeping fingers crossed I’m not gonna have the severe ‘Monday blues’ like previous week…heck I never believed in that until it happened last week! Dang Monday blues….. >.>
p/s: somehow i felt like i’m crapping here…pardon me..should have blame it on the hiatus…i’m not longer coherent with my thoughts
